There is so much of an urge not to help her out any more, not to baby her, not to spoon feed everything to her anymore. I could cut her out of my life completely and probably be better off. I wouldn't have to worry about getting a job or an apartment for college, I wouldn't have to constantly be putting miles on my car to see her, I wouldn't spend so much in gas, I could use more of my money on things I want, I'd be a lot better off, seeing as I wouldn't have to constantly worry about her shit and plan around her.
This sounds so liberating that I'm not sure why I'm not doing it, other than the fact that she has some of my stuff. And off the top of my head the only thing I can think of that she has of mine is my KH DDD game, which I might even sacrifice. I have money. I can definitely buy a new one if I'm not spending all of my money on her or stupid plans that revolve around her.
And I mean, it's not like she doesn't have a billion other friends, so she won't be lonely. She makes friends easily, it won't be a problem for her.
I could do it. I could cut off all ties. I'm so close to doing it, it's so very, very tempting.
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