I'm trying to be the better person

Yes, I'm always bitter and hateful towards her, and I know it's because I have jealousy in me. I know I'm jealous of how she gets everything, or how her parents actually love her, or how skinny she is or how pretty she can be, and I shouldn't be. I shouldn't compare myself to her, and even then I have tons of redeeming qualities that she doesn't have, like being intelligent and having a great GPA in college and being able to drive and have functioning sexual relationships and those are things that matter in the real world but at the same time in this damn fantasy world she forces us to live in with cons every month and cosplay this and tumblr that, she's somehow the more competent one. She's so social and she has so many friends and they all just fawn over her and live in her dumb little world and I just want to bitch slap her into reality. Like, so she fucking realizes real life isn't about how many damn cosplays you do or how many followers she has on the internet it's about getting good grades and driving and having a permanent job and a house and completing college and the more I think about it the angrier I get. Like I got handled colitis, shitty parents and a meager college fund and I got through college with excellent grades. Where as she got a huge ass amount of stuff handed to her, never truly gave a shit about her school life and still is allowed to live how she wants. Why the hell should that be allowed? The only time she has major anxiety is when she fucks herself over with her dumb ass decisions. I have to have anxiety over her, and things that aren't my fault.
I guess the reason why I'm jealous is because I grew up to be the person everyone said was ideal yet slackers like her are the ones who get to live the ideal lives.