The clingy annoying one

I hate that most of the time I feel like a really annoying clingy girlfriend when in fact I do not have the privilege to be any of those things so I should just suck up my bitter feelings and stop making such a mess of things. In reality, I'm really tired of myself. And I'm really tired of everything that's happening around me. I feel like I'm the only one who's prepared to actually do something with my life like I'm supposed to, and then everyone around me is just stalling for time while they play in their little fantasy worlds where they get to do fun stuff and enjoy themselves when that's not the norm that society has put forth for us.
God damn it people, why don't you see this? You're going to have to pretend to be an adult now. You can't just keep running around on someone else's bill, doing the things you want to whenever you want to. You're going to actually have to step up to the plate, get shit done, get a job and muscle through college. And golly gee, if that doesn't suck. But boo-hoo, no one has time to feel sorry for you because it's reality and this is how life works and we've all had to go through with this already, so why haven't your hopes and dreams been crushed yet? It's not fair that you still get to enjoy your life. So we're going to ruin it with how things should be, and if you aren't a miserable pile of shit by the end then we're not trying hard enough.