Can't make a difference

I can't change anything, can I? I'm just waiting for everything to explode.
Nothing's ever going to work out.
I can't change anything.
I can't fix anything.
Why do I even bother?
Why do I even make these attachments?
If I only cared about myself, I wouldn't get hurt like this.
I wish I didn't have friends.
I wish I didn't care about anyone.
I wish I didn't love anyone.
I wish I wasn't responsible for people.
I wish I could just go away.