I'm too good of a person

I'm giving someone advice on how to talk someone out of feeling suicidal. Even though they're the ones who make me want to kill myself all the time. I'm so sick to my stomach right now and I don't want to be here or have to do this why am I such a good person god this makes me want to kill myself. But I'm not that fucking selfish. That's why I haven't. I'm too god damn responsible to force other people to deal with my shit. I'm so tired of people and their damn emotions. Stop making me have to deal with you because you can't deal with yourself. I'm not equipped to handle my depression and everyone else's. I'm just strong enough to deal with my own, barely, and fuck everyone else. And I'm not dealing with mine, I'm ignoring it. If I pretend the emotions aren't there, I can get along and no one cares. Because guess what kiddo, you're fucking lucky enough to have someone who does care, so stop pulling this shit. You took the one person in my life who cared and made them care about you, so suck it up. You got the golden prize, you got more than that, and you're just so damn self-centered that you can't even be happy with that. I don't want you to die, I don't wish that on anyone. But the second you threaten it, say you're going to give up, saying no one cares, pisses me off. I swore I wouldn't hate you, but you're pushing your luck. Fuck up your own life, who cares. But it's not just your life anymore. You're not the only one in it.
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And now Mel's throwing a fit because we told her not to make it worse. She really doesn't understand other people and it's not cute or innocent to try and help when you know someone's in a bad place and they really only want to hear from the person they care about. She's just trying to undermine things once again because she thinks she knows better, and she doesn't. People today are just making my day go from bad to worse. I already have this huge ass scary burn on my hand and a ton of homework and dealing with these people shouldn't be my problem. At least school is cancelled tomorrow. Hallelujah, I thought today was only going to go completely down hill.